I don't hate you anymore // poem

I do not hate you anymore

I am no longer plagued by your existence

But I still hate the feeling of pain

Which came with your secret betrayal

I let the ink from my pen tell the story

I allow it to leap off the page

Because art let's the way you made me feel

Come alive again

I can still hear your mechanical laughter

I can feel myself screaming at you to just stop

Maybe the things you did weren't of importance

But for me, they really meant a lot.

You scarred my every movement

To the point where I was stopped mid walk

Because I sensed your presence behind me

My heart skipped beats and my words came up short

Sometimes he reminds me of you.

Just a flicker of mocking in his eyes.

It's momentary and glimpse

But its enough to make me realise

I will never escape the way you made me feel 

Because you're in every person I know

We all have a desire to taunt and belittle

No matter how hard or easy that flows

I do not hate you anymore.

Perhaps you seek my forgiveness

I'm sorry, I cannot give you that

These events are unable to be compressed

But I ask those of you who feel that inside

Who can separate themselves from those they are hurting

To please just stop.

Because we don't hate you anymore,

but enough is enough.

// Jeani